Self-Care
I started on a new meditation series and it has had a very surprising effect on me. In my new meditations I keep seeing pictures and when I am finished meditating, I have this pressing need to draw what I’ve seen. I haven’t drawn in forty years! When I was young I loved art and I feel like I’ve always loved to draw or paint, but I never really honored that, practiced or pursued it. Yet, when I decided to hunt around the house, I found pencil sets and drawing paper, paint, brushes and watercolor paper that had been abandoned long ago but were still perfect. I even had an old wooden easel that hadn’t been touched in I can’t say how many years.
So now I’m dusting them off and trying them out. I am consciously accepting this for the gift it is and not berating myself for not keeping up with it over the years or judging my skills as lacking since they are no more developed than a child’s. I won’t waste my very precious time with any of that.
Instead I am talking to myself with the kindness that I would use with a child or a dear friend. I am reminding myself this is for my personal and private enjoyment, no contests, no critiquing, just me and a pencil, paper or brush and paper. Just like when I meditate – I will always space out, make the to do list or grocery list, but then without judgement I can just take the next breath and bring myself back. So, go have fun, relax, enjoy a new experience today and you may have a very pleasant surprise!
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